{"id":22728,"date":"2017-11-09T09:26:09","date_gmt":"2017-11-09T08:26:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/shekulliagency.com\/?p=22728"},"modified":"2017-11-10T09:48:05","modified_gmt":"2017-11-10T08:48:05","slug":"histori-dashurie-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/?p=22728","title":{"rendered":"HISTORI DASHURIE"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>E kam t\u00eb nevojshme\u00a0 t\u00eb them se \u201cun\u00eb njeriu\u201d, ai i p\u00ebrditshmi lajkatar, g\u00ebnjej kur them pa kandar \u201ct\u00eb dua\u201d. Jam nj\u00eb tinzar i vog\u00ebl dhe i dob\u00ebt \u00e7do her\u00eb q\u00eb i them dikujt q\u00eb e kam zili \u201ct\u00eb dua\u201d. Un\u00eb at\u00eb, ndaj t\u00eb cilit ndjehem inferior, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb hipokrite mundohem ta afroj duke i th\u00ebn\u00eb \u201cun\u00eb kam mik.. un\u00eb t\u00eb dua!\u201d. Por nd\u00ebrkoh\u00eb, \u201cUn\u00eb\u201d njeriu pa shk\u00eblqim, i zakonsh\u00ebm dhe i m\u00ebrzitsh\u00ebm, pa ndonj\u00eb inteligjenc\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb, nuk di t\u00eb dua. Ndjehem keq kur kam p\u00ebrpara inteligjentin e dashur, \u201cat\u00eb pasqyr\u00ebn\u201d ku shihem dhe m\u00eb kujtohet q\u00eb nuk jam kam lindur n\u00eb t\u00eb njejtin vit me t\u00eb.<\/p>\n

M\u00eb kujtohet se nuk kam lindur n\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin qytet apo pallat m\u00eb t\u00eb, por diku n\u00eb provinc\u00eb, apo n\u00eb ndonj\u00eb fshat t\u00eb harruar. Nuk e kam emrin dhe historin e tij, idet\u00eb\u00a0 dhe bot\u00ebn shpirtrore apo at\u00eb miq\u00ebsore t\u00eb tij. Nuk e pash\u00eb dhe nuk e g\u00ebzova t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn dashuri q\u00eb mori si dhurat\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e tij ai tjetri. K\u00ebshtu g\u00ebnjej edhe kur i drejtohem nj\u00eb vajze e i them \u201ct\u00eb dua\u201d.<\/p>\n

N\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb un\u00eb at\u00eb vajz\u00eb nuk e kam objektiv dhe destinatare t\u00eb ndjenj\u00ebs time m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe. Nuk i jap asaj \u00e7do gj\u00eb. Nuk i jap shpirtin dhe energjin\u00eb e madhe q\u00eb del prej tij. Un\u00eb, si lajkatar, ziliqar dhe egoist, i vog\u00ebl dhe mizantrop, dua prej saj ate \u00e7ka m\u00eb intereson tek ajo, por nuk e dua at\u00eb. Pra un\u00eb nuk i jap n\u00eb inflacion, pallavra, g\u00ebnjeshtra e plot t\u00eb tjera si k\u00ebto. E at\u00ebher\u00eb m\u00eb lind pyetja; Po \u00e7fare dua un\u00eb ndaj k\u00ebtij?!<\/p>\n

\u00c7far\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj un\u00eb nga njeriu. At\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019e kam?! At\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019mund ta kem?! T\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn dhe shpirtin e tij?! Dhe p\u00ebrgjigjja m\u00eb vjen e rrufeshme. Jo. Un\u00eb nuk e dua ate. Un\u00eb dua m\u00eb t\u00eb padrjejt\u00ebn ate q\u00eb s\u2019e marr dot, at\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019\u00ebsht\u00eb e imja, at\u00eb q\u00eb s\u2019kam p\u00ebr ta patur kurr\u00eb. E k\u00ebshtu si rrjedhoj\u00eb nuk dua por lakmoj. Ky \u00ebsht\u00eb verb\u00ebri i p\u00ebrshtatsh\u00ebm: \u201cLakmoj dhe kam zili\u201d- kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb motoja jon\u00eb e p\u00ebrditshme q\u00eb n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb\u00a0 pavullnetshme q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb m\u00eb err\u00ebsohen syt\u00eb dhe jo rrall\u00eb t\u2019i dua t\u00eb keqen atij tjetrit. Dua q\u00eb ato q\u00eb ai zot\u00ebron t\u2019i n\u00ebnshtrohen d\u00ebshir\u00ebs por jo dashuris\u00eb sime. Jam egoist dhe vanitoz ndaj tij. Dua p\u00ebr vehte edhe pjes\u00ebn time por mbi t\u00eb gjitha at\u00eb \u00e7ka ka t\u00eb mir\u00eb e t\u00eb shtrenjt\u00eb \u201cai tjetri\u201d. Dhe Dashuria p\u00ebrballet me veset dhe m\u00ebkatet tona, por edhe me parregullsit\u00eb e fjalorit. Un\u00eb Dua n\u00eb sensin q\u00eb: \u201ckam Nevoj\u00eb\u201d.<\/p>\n

Po, kam nevoj\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb gjetja tjet\u00ebr p\u00ebr t\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebrdorimin korrekt t\u00eb fjal\u00ebve pa th\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb dua. Pra, kam nevoj\u00eb ta shoh posht\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebve t\u00eb mia at\u00eb\u00a0 q\u00eb un\u00eb lakmoj dhe jo dua. Duhet t\u00eb rregullojm\u00eb edhe fjalorin ton\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrditsh\u00ebm p\u00ebrve\u00e7se udh\u00ebs s\u00eb shpirtit p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos u keqkuptuar nga t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. Sepse kemi nj\u00eb jet\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb q\u00eb g\u00ebnjejm\u00eb dhe krijojm\u00eb iluzijon\u00eb duke th\u00ebn\u00eb e dua at\u00eb. At\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb shkakton traum\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb fort\u00eb t\u00eb inferioritetit. At\u00eb q\u00eb \u201cun\u00eb\u201d s\u2019jam dot. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb rast kemi t\u00eb b\u00ebjm\u00eb me nj\u00eb ndjesi tjet\u00ebr dhe aspak me dashurin\u00eb. \u201cUn\u00eb\u201d kam nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr at\u00eb por nuk dua, nuk dashuroj.<\/p>\n

Eroll Velija<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

E kam t\u00eb nevojshme\u00a0 t\u00eb them se \u201cun\u00eb njeriu\u201d, ai i p\u00ebrditshmi lajkatar, g\u00ebnjej kur them pa kandar \u201ct\u00eb dua\u201d. Jam nj\u00eb tinzar i vog\u00ebl dhe i dob\u00ebt \u00e7do her\u00eb…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":13620,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[30],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22728","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-poeziletersi"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22728"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=22728"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22728\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22730,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22728\/revisions\/22730"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/13620"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=22728"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=22728"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/alb.shekulliagency.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=22728"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}